2016

Dear God,

This year was hard,

This year was mad,

Yet it was beautiful too.
Dear God,

It hurt a lot,

Lots of battles fought,

Though I smiled too.
Dear God, 

Thank you for the blessings of this year,

And the light of today,

I’d do it all over because it brought me closer to You.
Dear God,

You kept Your word without misses,

You kept Your promises,

I love You too.

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She loved the night.

She loved the night

Staring at the luminescent beauties

She loved the night

Talismanic and peaceful

She loved the night

The moon could finally boast its glory

She loved the night

Shooting stars and wishes of a better tomorrow

She loved the night

Earth was silent and its heart beat softer

She loved the night

Fire flies and camp friends

She loved the night

The air was cooler, the breeze ecstatic

She loved the night

The sky radiated different combinations of color

She loved the night

The city gates closed, the noisy cars parked

She loved the night

Calm, peaceful and slow

She loved the night

Constellations telling mysteries of earths journey

She loved the night

Her eyes closed, heart excited and feet dancing to quietness

She loved the night

It signalled the dawn of a new day.

My greatest lessons of 2016.

We live in times where people would rather mock God than praise Him. We would rather say “I worked so hard to achieve this” rather than give God the glory. Its by grace, all of it, never forget this Truth no matter how bad or how good your life may get. Grace gets you saved, Grace keeps you saved, Grace imparts righteousness on you, Grace teaches you to live holy upright lives, Grace will lift you up, Grace will cause you to be favored, Grace will vindicate you. Forgetting Grace will bring about your fall. The fall is not to shame you. But bring you back on your knees to a place of surrender and seeking Gods Grace and face. That’s what a loving God can do to bring you to your senses.

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Unconditional love

There is a lot of bad going on…a lot…. But today I’ll just take this opportunity to boast in my God. 

1 Corinthians: 1. 31. Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.

I am not one of those who wish a year ends because its so bad…lol…Idk…life is just such a blessing… Its not because I’m so blessed more than others… I learned sometime ago that others just don’t count their blessings hence they may show like God has favorites, He doesn’t.

I consciously decide to wear the garment of praise and thank God. 2014 was great, 2015 was better, 2016 has been so lit and God willing I’ll still be singing in 2017.

Why? Because I choose to make God big in my eyes and that makes all trials and problems seem petit and trivial.

My life is far from perfect…. Some days are harder than others…But I tell you today beyond a shadow of a doubt that its all worth it in the long and short run. I am not perfect just ask my mom😂😂😂

But 2016 has been my best and most painful year ever!! The bad times were extremely bad….but the Good things😍😍 Whatever was meant for my harm, God used for my good:):) 

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My best friend.

Genesis: 50. 20. You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives. 

Keep your faith and confidence, it will richly be rewarded By God:)

Hebrews: 10. 35. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. 
Like God is real and also very good. Forget those false prophets who are causing a mockery of our God. They will receive their due. God can defend Himself… Stop pitying Him…Its just a matter of time.

Yesterday at the mount Zion youth Conference, I learned something very precious: Time will eventually reveal and separate the false from the real. You can’t pretend that long. The oil of the foolish virgins will eventually run out:)

Forget the false… Focus on God and no one can deceive you. Let the Word of God take root in you that it becomes who you are. Fellowship with God so much so you learn His voice and no one can deceive you with a false god. The only reason you’re falling for the false is because you don’t know the real and haven’t spent enough time with Him or in His light and Word.

I’ll keep singing. And on that day when my strength is failing, the end draws near and my time has come, STILL MY SOUL WILL SING YOUR PRAISE UNENDING FOR 10000 Years and then forever more. 

Bless the Lord O my soul, worship His holy name. Sing like never before O my soul soul worship His holy name.

The sun comes up its a new day dawning. Its time to sing your song again. Whatever may pass and whatever lies before me. Lemme be singing when the evening comes.

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Reflections

 This year I experienced more heartbreak, more rejection, more betrayal, more setback, more pain, more tears.And guess what else?

More blessings, more favor, more love, more grace, more joy, more laughter, more glory, more triumphs, more happy tears. Yes, tears will always feature for me😂

I wouldn’t trade it for anything. Because how do I learn the fruit of the Spirit without a lesson? We are being transformed from glory to glory into the imagine of Christ. So we go through tests and trials to refine us like gold as Peter said. If you’re facing persecution on your walk with God or facing trials…surely you are on the right track. Your brothers all over the world face the same:)

1 Peter: 5. 9. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 

Mark: 10. 30. will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age: homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—along WITH  PERSECUTION—and in the age to come eternal life. 
Galatians: 5. 22. But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23. gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 
How will I be gentle unless tempted to be aggressive. How can I be kind, loving, patient or joyful without being in situations that threaten to bring out just the opposite. Perseverance is a lesson you learn only in a time of trials.
Romans: 5. 3. Not only so, but we also glory in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4. perseverance, character; and character, hope.

**Lacking nothing…you want to learn maturity?👇👇**

James: 1. 2. Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3. because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

My biggest lessons this year:

1. God means His Word. He is worth trusting.

2. Trust God and love people. People may fail me but its fine. God will never fail me. Sometimes people just don’t know how to be nice. Maybe no one taught them. Repay their evil with good, you’ll teach them a lesson on love and who He is.

3. Don’t give up on yourself even when everyone else does. No matter how hard it may get, the pain won’t last forever. Weeping may endure the night but joy comes in the morning. Others kill themselves during the night and miss the morning glory.

4. Gods description of you differs a lot from what people say. 

5. You can do very little to change your environment or what others do or can’t do. Don’t bother, it was never your job to do. Others will just not like you, it really has nothing to do with you. Others are mean bitter or spiteful, pray for them, they are going through a lot deep down.

6. People have various descriptions of holiness. Don’t let their shallowness get to you. They most likely don’t even practice those human traditions they tell you about. Your only standard to holy living should be Gods. You’ll never leave holy without the gift of righteousness being established in you. Righteousness leads to holiness, not vice versa.

7. Don’t just believe anything you are told. Prove it by Scripture. Even revelation traces its roots from scripture.

8. Others are so devil focused. Talking to them will make Christ appear small and distant. Avoid their words. Satan is real, true. But God is way bigger, way way bigger. Best way to resist the devil is to submit to God. James 4:6-7

9. Forgiveness is Gods greatest gift to mankind. Love and forgiveness go hand in hand.

10. Sometimes life doesn’t make sense. But its even more senseless without God:)

Romans: 8. 28. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 

Numbers 6:24-26 to you all.

By:Bupe Chikumbi.

Hey awesome reader, if you enjoyed this post, I’m pretty sure you’ll love this too She has changed.

Birthday blues or birthday joy?

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Happy birthday.

Its my birthday nope! Just an ordinary day with my name tagging along,
I’ll be super happy if everything just fits perfectly, nope! Life is a beautiful imperfection,
See, its my birthday and I don’t feel so different than I felt yesterday, am I wrong?
Its a milestone day, I want cake, I want my friends around, I want, I need, I want, reality meets expectation,

So I read of this thing called birthday blues last time around, it made me sad, it made me more SELF aware,
I cried because I didn’t get the stuff I thought I deserved, I didn’t get the attention I desired,
After all, its the one day in the year that I should be selfish right? Its MY day, just making my claim clear?
People are panicking tryna make this as perfect and as cool as they can, they try till finally they are tired,

Its my birthday yes! But the burden placed on loved ones is too much to bear,
Yes its my day, but expecting others to lift my mood and erase years of pain, failed dreams, lost hopes and self esteem is just mean,
Have I taken advantage of this 24 hours to make others my slaves? Is it fair?
So I spent all year WANTING… What have I GIVEN? What’s the joy? The serving or the win?

I just realized if I’ll base my birthday success on what others can or can’t do for me, I’m screwed.
Because I’m powerless to what happens on the exterior, I’m unable to dictate the outside,
What if my birthday is my time to love more, to give more, to share more, I could?
What if today is the one day in this entire year that I show the world just why God created me, a day to let the joy within come outside?

Its my birthday yes! But I’m so happy, its my day, yes its mine.
I’m happy, I’m glad, I’m overjoyed I get to spend another year on earth,
I’m excited to do more, to be more and to let my light shine.
You won’t find me gloomy, you won’t find me expecting, you won’t find me demanding… Its all mirth.

For the first time, I feel I finally get it! Don’t worry, don’t stress, don’t panic,
This birthday girl is not seeking payback, I don’t want you feeling obliged or indebted to repay my birthday gift to you,
I’m dancing on the inside, somehow God found it worthy to add one more year…how cool? I wanna sing, pass the mic,
I’m humbled you’ve all taken the time to sing with me, to celebrate with me, to go out of your way. I love you.

Then we pass on this torch to generations following, we pass on our sick tradition and painful myth,
Somehow the garment of praise, the robe of humility, the joy in the Holy Spirit is true, except on a birthday?
We train them to be selfless, they should be more like Jesus, just not on the day of their birth,
We miss the point, remember the joy you brought to this world as a new born, do that today.

So today will be different, I put off that MASK of SELFISH, you won’t see me complain and whine,
I don’t want to be so self absorbed I miss out on the simplicities,
I take off this veil, I remove the I, I take away the ME, I erase the MY and the MINE,
Its my birthday and how I want to serve and love without expecting royalties

Somehow you and I have been deceived, we fell for our flesh, we fell in the pit,
Me me me me, is that really the way?
Defined their love on the quantity or quality of a gift?
If today be my day….then I’ll make it the happiest day!

Today is awesome! I get a new blessing upon my life, I wouldn’t want to miss this,
Today is great! Daddy God felt it fit to have me partake in this world,
Today is fantastic, a little girl was birthed into the world years ago to light it up with love, peace and heavenly bliss,
Happy birthday self… With love we paint this world.

Its my birthday, yes, but my joy is already complete in God.
Its my birthday, yes, all I want for today is more time to love, to give, to touch, to share, to bring Christ to you.
Happy birthday self, its been a great journey so far❤

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Hey reader, if you loved reading this post. I’m pretty sure you’ll love this poem Without spot or wrinkle

Saved to serve others.

I love to write down every step in my journey/life because  I’m a teacher, I’m a connector,  i use words to describe stuff that you’re feeling or thinking or avoiding to make mention of..I love to get down and messy with humanity…to go into the dark corners with lurking shadows and just tell you that “you’ll get through this, because I did too..God is able, He never left me, and He surely won’t leave you..He heard my prayers and cries…and He will hear you too🙌

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You'll get through this❤

2 Corinthians: 1. 3. Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4. who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God.

There is power and strength in vulnerability.

I believe “as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same AND as we are liberated from our own fears, our presence automatically liberates others”
I share my life and my struggles.. I get vulnerable, I may  tell you my fears, my strengths, my flaws, my achievements.. Etc.. Because one day when its all said and done…someone else might go through exactly what I went through… But they won’t have to face it alone..they won’t have to figure stuff out by themselves… I can look them straight in the eyes and say “ME TOO…I was there too…and here is how you can breakout because God is both willing and also able to save you”

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Saved to serve others.